We live opposite a junction and watch a lot of agricultural traffic passing through; enormous slow but very deadly looking farm machinery, mud-splattered jeeps, the occasional horse. Every now and again, we'll be sitting quietly in our living room (our living room) and Stephen will exclaim, "Potatoes!" as a truck, bearing enough spuds to feed the village for a year, goes by.
For almost two weeks, I couldn't believe we'd really done it. We've talked about a home of our own for four and a half years. We've talked so much and planned and schemed, so that actually moving in felt like a further exercise in fantasy, as if we'd been allowed to play house for a few days before having to go home. Home - I was finally given my own key to my parents' house on the day I moved out.
This spell was broken by a new washing machine - strictly speaking, a washer-dryer. Turns out, when the machines achieve singularity, they won't take over and enslave us, they'll simply humiliate us by undermining all logical steps we might take to wash our clothes. We could have fantasised about the peace and quiet, the freedom and the flat-pack furniture (it's so satisfying). I wouldn't have fantasised about spending the best part of a day trying to get one load clean and dry(ish). So it had to be real. It's real.
This is one reason why I love him. I've known a few people who have survived periods of adversity by holding fast to some positive in their life; a dream for the future, a passion in the present, a pet cat. At some point, Stephen learned to find joy in the minutia; the pattern of veins on a leaf, the comfort of woolen socks or the glorious versatility of the humble spud. He's carried me through difficult times this way. Bad morning? Then let's make lunch an event. To say every day is special sounds both corny and slightly nauseating, but the truth is occasionally like that.
|Manna From Potato Heaven; a large, still rather dirty|
potato embraced by a pair of manly white hands.
A large specimen lands in our garden, perfectly intact. We'll have that. Vegetarian roadkill.
We've always lived in other people's homes, one way or another. Stephen has always lived with his parents. I've lived with my parents, my ex-husband and briefly, a friend, but I've always had to fit myself to other people's routines and rituals, the way other people want to do things, sometimes infuriating in their futility, sometimes just impossible to abide by fully. When I first left my ex-husband, the relative freedom was overwhelming; when you've had someone else dictating everything from what you wear to how you make a cup of tea, it's hard to know where to begin.
Something similar is happening now, although it's shared between us. We need to work out how to manage our energy, now that we can do pretty much what we like, whenever we like. Fending for ourselves, we need to use a lot of energy on the basics, but those basics don't need to accommodate anyone else, whether in terms of space or timing or anxiety that if there's food on every shelf of the fridge, it may stop working altogether.
It's a long time since I lived in a town; I've never lived in the city. But I don't know what comes next, once all the potatoes are gathered in. I'm sure onions came earlier - late August, early September. You could smell them, even if you couldn't see them. Once the potato lorries drive away (Potato Merchant, one of them declares on the side), is that it, for the winter?
I'm so tremendously happy right now.
If Golden Brown is about potatoes, what's Puff the Magic Dragon about?
I love reading your description of the trucks and what falls off them. I've never done any work in the agricultural sector, but I made the journey out to near where you live quite a few times recently, so I know where the beets are going. Someone in the Guardian, I think, mentioned in a letter recently that as children, they used to carve up the sugar-beets that fell in the road for Halloween, in place of pumpkins.
I hope you both settle in well - I love travelling out into the country but I don't know if I could imagine living in a small village (even though I studied in a small town in Wales, miles from anywhere).
Happiness. That's fab news. I know you will both work it all OUT.
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